Boundless
My love for her, boundless though it may be
Will likely be spent unknown for eternity.
It has no measure so that it can be noted
And it has no truth giving words to be quoted.
It has no signs to show where it lies
Nor on any ears does fall its cries.
With no terms for its very real persistence
How can I explain her its existence?
It flows with every moment that I live
And my only wish is to her this love give
Freely with nothing asked in return
Just that of this love she may learn.
But something so limitless cannot simply
Be explained or shown very easily.
I cant expound on what has no definition
Nor can I unfold for her its disposition.
But still this boundless love flows thru me
For only the one person who may never see
That this limitless love so true and pure
Is meant for only one person, just for her.

Sprites
Dangling there, upon the edge of my vision
Ever moving about the fringes of my sight
Dance these sprites on their mysterious mission
Always beckoning are these little sprites.

Are they mocking me, or trying to help me
Of their purpose I do not know
But they are next to all that I see
Constantly fluttering about me so.

In my dreams they come to me, these sprites
And explain their purpose for surrounding me
But when struck by the morning light
No more their reasoning can I see.

Alone I must suffer with them in my sight
Who would believe my story of this awful bane
I am constantly pestered by little sprites,
They would lock me up as insane.

Still they persist, nothing makes them leave
Swats, mentally or physically, pass them thru
Almost bringing to believe
That about them there is nothing I can do.

Still they infest the edge of my sight
Half forgotten dreams plague my mind.
Of a way to rid myself of these sprites
Not a single solution can I find.

Godhood
As I stand on my ship’s helm
Slowly, slowly, I rise to the realm.
Many emotions flash across my face
As I near that magical place
Where I am to attain my godhood.

Flying through the haunting illusions
I share my feelings of futile confusions.
I reach the entrance, knock on the door
A voice comes to me, what are you here for?
I have come to claim my godhood.

Laughter rings around, piercing my ears
I can’t escape, the snickers all I hear.
I quickly fly away, my mind shattered
As I have lost the only thing that mattered,
My admittance into godhood.

Alone I fly, to where I don’t know
Just drifting to where my ship happens to go.
Thinking, deciding, what I should do
How to them I could possibly prove
That I am deserving of godhood.

But then it struck me how to attain
The only thought that in my mind remains.
Alone, I will claim what I deserve
And the others, me they will serve
When I finally reach my godhood.

Back I turned and faced the ones
Who by which I had once been shunned.
Once more I asked them to let me in
They said no, so I let my wrath begin
So I may have my rightful godhood.

My power apparently they did not know
For defense they made a pathetic show.
I destroyed them easily, merely a thought
And stepped to where the battle was fought
And where I was to begin my godhood.

Seeing nothing but complete destruction
All was empty, there was only desolation
And ruins left for me to ever rule.
Alone I wept, as the king as his fool,
Thus ending my delusions of godhood.

Emptiness
When I laugh and enjoy some humor
I’m quickest to smile, none sooner.
A robust joy that is never empty
As only my heart can ever be.

When I cry after a dire situation
True tears are the sole indication
That my sadness is not as empty
As only my heart can truly be.

When ire abounds and vengeance yearns
To satisfy the blood that boils and burns
My fury is honest and never empty
As only my heart can surely be.

Of my dreams to which I aspire
To those plateaus to take me higher
My wishes are real and not empty
As only my heart can ever be.

But of that situation I may truly need
The infertile land that won’t take seed,
Desolate, bare, cold and so empty
As only my heart will ever be.

Oakness
The mighty oak stands
In his vast field alone
He looks upon his plains
That’s naught but dirt and stone.
Alone he will stand there
For no others can create
On the barren land
Whose precious life it takes.
Sucking away all nourishment
To solely add to his girth,
So the ground lays sterile
A wasteland since it’s birth.
But ever does it grow
Sapping all from the land
Still he rises to the sky
And till death, alone he stands.

???
As the rain continues
To fall from the heavens
The rising waters
Swell beyond their bounds.
And as I can do naught
But watch and weep
I will surely drown
In the water that
My tears only add to.

???
I strive to tell thee
What my heart doth know
And whilst deep in contemplation
I seek a means
So thee I may show,
That point beyond joy
That point beyond happiness
That point when my being
Is filled with utter bliss.
Thus I chance these words
For your eyes to only read
And hope you understand
That I am yours to lead.
Yet still I try to discover
That will make you believe
That I am at you command
To fulfill your every need.

???
Some things are so obvious
And also so painful
That as conspicuous as they are
They will remain full
Of ignorant phrases
And uncomprehending stares
That will ward off the agony
To which none other compares.
For all is pain and strife
So we banter against its caress
And hope that, if only briefly
Its torment might once recess
And maybe give us one moment
Of happiness before we die
So that just once in our life
We won’t want to break down in cry.

Beacon
A light in the dark
Is what I’ve seen
A word in the silence
Is what I’ve heard
A touch through the numb
Is what I’ve felt.

That beacon came to me
If only very briefly
And raised me from the depth
Of eternal slumber.
But it is gone
And once again I am sinking
Into that cold, dark
And silent realm
My heart so yearns for
Forever more.

Unresolved
Existence so crude
And fairly unstable,
Is mostly relentless
In actions unable
To be accounted for
In time so long
To possibly correct
All that’s gone wrong.
What is incomplete
To each and every one
May be simple ideas
To all that’s yet undone.
Unfinished as though
All apparently implies
That truth still exists
If even beyond our eyes.
So surely resolve
What needs some backing
And maybe we’ll complete
All that is lacking.

Meanings
I should have expressed
What I really felt inside,
But now I succumb
To my unavoidable pride.
I only wish that
I may make it known
The truth of this plight
Is a bit over blown.
I know your tendencies
And you won’t pass by
All the subtleness
That I always imply.
And I hope that
You won’t misconstrue
What the real message is
That I send to you.
But if you did
And if I don’t explain
After all the troubles
I will absorb the pain.
But now it’s over
And all but extinct
I should have been clear
And much more distinct.
I should have said
What I really intended
Now I can only ponder
What is now truly ended.

???
If that rock you want moved
A mountain though it be
Consider it displaced,
Because anything for thee
Is not beyond what is
Possible for me to do,
All you must do is wish it
And I will complete it for you.
If for some reason
You want the stars in the sky
I will bring them down
Before your very eyes.
No matter what it is
That you may wish done
Remember I am your slave
And the one to call upon.

Sacrifice
Again sorrow rules
In all that I know
And still I must reap
All that I can’t sow.
Still I must right
All wrongs I have made
Still I must sharpen
The sacrificial blade
That can only end
The pain I’ve created
And with only life’s blood
Will it be sated.
So now I kneel, waiting,
Ending it all alone.
Paying my debt to
The gods I ever serve
I bare my soul and
Receive what I deserve.

The Destroyer
So easy to destroy
All that has been built
One touch from my hand
I am the destroyer.
All that has taken time
All that has taken years
Falls before my wrath
I am the destroyer.
Now matter how high
No matter how strong
It will fall before me
I am the destroyer.
Nothing can be made
That is immune to me
All will be waste
I am the destroyer.
No matter if I try
No matter if I want
All before me dies
I am the destroyer.

Decimation
Everything I do
Causes nothing but ruin.
Everything I touch
Causes nothing but despair.
Demolition
Is all I can claim.
Havoc beyond
All hope for repair.
Still I must live
With all grief I cause
Still I must cope
With my acts of decimation.
Weeping still
Through all agony created
But still my tears
Can’t abate the desolation.
So alone I try
To mend all I have done.
Rebuild, repair.
A task impossible to complete,
To amend
All the evil I have done.

War Within
Head and heart always waging
Within my shell so weak,
Dominance they are both after
An upper hand they seek.
Until this they were equal
In power, strength and will
But now there appears a victor
And it’s foe it will surely kill.
One without the other, never apart,
Supposedly they were a team
Guiding each other through
What ever life may bring.
But as the war is fought
One seems to finally prevail
And the passions of the other
It will now assuredly derail.
For logic is now ready to conquer
And soon will reign supreme
And soon my heart will be a memory
Nothing but a distant dream.
It’s use now may be forever gone
And I can only weep with little remorse
For the mind is right as always
And an empty heart must be my course.

Dead Inside
The wings life has given me
Have always lifted me high,
But now I can’t leave the ground
No matter how much I try.
With wings remaining so useless
In death I would confide
But it doesn’t really matter
For I’m already dead inside.
Reaching for those heights
That I can no longer attain
Bring my soul only sorrow
And fill my being with pain.
With failure flowing through me
Death I might have tried
But there is no reason for it
For I’m already dead inside.
With my life so shattered
No words can be spoken
That may mend my wings
That are forever broken.
Now with my shell so empty
Where only grief can abide
My husk shall remain barren
For I’m forever dead inside.

Weeds
Living in a world so diverse
Seeing the full spectrum
Of all things:
Thinking, acting, being,
Both good and bad,
I must keep remembering
That with out the weeds
The roses wouldn’t be
As beautiful.

Thank You
Thank you for leaving me
Like I always knew you would
Thank you for using me
Every which way you could
Thank you for showing me
The best someone could be
Thanking you for trusting me
And letting my spirits soar free
Thank you for showing me
The worst side of anyone
Thank you for leaving me
Now to be forever alone
Thank you for kissing me
When the world brought me down
Thank you for hugging me
When I can only frown
Thank you for letting me
Believe we were perfect together
Thank you for fooling me
To thinking we were forever
Thank you for telling me
How you really felt for me
Thank you for showing me
All that fun I could never see
Thank you for robbing me
Of the last of my love to give
Thank you for giving me
A life I don’t wish to live

Upon the Wind
I lay my wish upon the wind
To only be carried away.
I speak into the breeze
My words treated the same way.
I give my dream to the star
That I first see in the night
I throw my fears to the sky
To maybe dispel my fright.
I show my hope to the waters
Flowing in your direction
And pray to the sprites
That I can make a connection.
I lay my wish upon the wind
May it’s message be carried true
So that you may know
How much I am missing you.

Each Night
When the day ends
And the sun sets in the sky
I get into my bed
And each night I die.
When morning appears
And the sun brightens the sky
I get out of bed
And each dawn I cry.
I wander aimlessly
Through out the lonely day
Seeking the means to
Guide me on my way.
I rove the sunlight
Empty and alone
Searching for the goal
Of wherever it is I roam.
Then the sun sets
And each night I die
Then the sun rises
And each morning I cry.

Inherit the Wind
My dreams and efforts
All to one thing bend,
To be free of this world
To inherit the wind.
To soar among the clouds
Among the stars so high
To float aimlessly and be
Master of the endless sky.
To move effortlessly
On the fiercest gust
Then patrol my realm
As always a ruler must.
To coast upon the breeze
Moving me to higher domains
Where no opponents
Would ever dare remain.
Take me from this reality
And to that world send
Me so I can finally
Inherit the wind.

Blood Red
Living, as it were
Around all that I lack
Devoid of all colors
I saw only raven black.
But before me appeared
And angel in my sight
As pure as the heavens
And the shade of snow white.
Bliss was immediate
And our joy was true
I loved my angel
And her eyes sky blue.
But she deserted me
And all I ever dread
Has come to pass
Now I see only blood red.

Shadow Cast
I set sail upon
The largest sea I could find,
Taking my course
To where ever
The wind has blown,
But the sail so majestically raised
Has my direction
Cast a shadow on.
I leap into the air
Wings spread to fly
To where ever
The wind may care,
But my pose so triumphantly struck
Has cast a shadow
Upon my ill-timed dare.
The road I tread
Leading into the unknown
Winds towards fears
Of which
I’d rather not be led.
But upon this path so traveled
I only cast a shadow
On things better left dead.

Ravenai
Through the pitch we call night
Flies the raven
Black on black, out of sight.
Searching still, for that sign
Of freedom
Which his soul cannot find.
Looking again for the white
In his realm
To ease his never ending flight.
Just one glimpse of his vision
His passion
Might relieve his lasting derision.
Searching still for his salvation
His angel pure
Who will end his abomination.

Once Bright
The wings beseeched
And the way entombed
The course once bright
Is now only doomed.
For all that trusted
Are boons left dead
Upon that woeful path
So many have tread.
For stealthily went
The enders strong
Whisper like feet
And death their song.
Cloven as midnight
The light felled fast
They rule the beacon
With their shadow cast.

Ravenre
Reluctant is the one who sees
All that may be the enemy
Valiant is one who perceives
Everything as he would believe
Nocturnal is the creature who
Roams the night searching for food
Eccentric is on who attains
That which is only material gains
Ignorant are those learning
The words of ones still yearning
Repressed are people who condone
The production of slave-like drones
Perverted are those inclined to rule
All the ones they consider fools

2:30 A.M.
I opened my front door
And stepped outside
I lit a cigarette and noticed
The baleful orange sky.
Clouds truly, was it only
But still they stayed
Reflecting the lights of night
With no divinity betrayed.
Where those clouds there
To blind my eyes
From something that they
Should not realize,
Or were they there
To cast a haze
Upon my possibly
Comprehending gaze.

Past Midnight
The time is here and past
Restraint is now far gone
Mutation is upon me
And the feeding won’t be long.
My effort was vainly bent
For I must succumb to the rage
All the time I have prepared
And still the madness I can’t cage.
The clock ticks, midnight is past
Into the night I flee
Roaming the dark I search
For the blood to set me free.
Red tinted mind, I seek
All life so I may devour
This killing frenzy and survive
Beyond the reckoning hour.

Chosen’s Fire
As the cold seeps into
My extremities
My heart works furiously
To keep the bite away.
Smoke curls around my head
Framing it in an
Insubstantial halo.
My breath hangs visibly
In the chilly air
Mixed with the exhumes
Of my loving death stick.
Lungs inhale both chill
And warmth together
While ears enjoy
The sweet caress
Of my lover’s voice.
But my chosen’s word
Becomes wrong
And bitter rides the taste.
My last ballast
Begins to fail
As killing words
Rip into my heart
And end my body’s fight
To keep out
The murdering chill.

Tears Shed
Standing in the bitter cold
The wind fiercely whipping my hair
My body succumbs to the chill
But I can’t find a reason to care.
The baleful moon remains hidden
Behind the clouds showing doom
Letting escape no trickle of light
Not unlike a burial tomb.
But still I stand in the cold
As the rain pounds onto my head
The sky water gently caresses me
And mingles with my tears now shed.

So Laden
Orange the sky
So close yet so far
From the blood dripping
Slowly but inalterably
From me.
The sky so full
Of tears, it’s and mine
Falling upon the ground.
Brown earth so laden
With all it must be
To only be washed away
By the sky’s spiteful deluge.
Still the two exist
One remaining somewhat sound
The other dropping
All it can on it’s
Unwavering enemy.

Soul’s Lament
A life once lived
With passion and sorrow
Dealt with the past
And looked to tomorrow.
But tomorrow won’t come
The soul’s song is over
The body just a husk
And to the ground deliver.
The joy and agony
Is now forever gone
And the after life
The soul must go alone.
The final note is sung
As the placing cement
Covers the body dead
And ends the soul’s lament.

Foreboding
The night softly whispers
Secrets meant to be unknown
The stars gently shining
Visions of past and future shown.
Memories given freely
And possibilities race by
But the sky’s foreboding
Eased not my questions why.
For are things as they should be
Or does pandemonium rule
And pose my understanding to be
The futile delusions of a fool.

Sinister Grin
The dark hand of despair
Inexorably grips your heart
It tries to continue beating
Though it’s ability to do so departs.
Crimson fluid starts to slow
Through channels it once passed
Pain explodes in your mind
A blinding light is flashed
That blissfully numbs the fire
But allows the cold to seep
Through out the shell so frail
That prays for peaceful sleep.
Fate grants your final wish
And in your last vision looms
A merciless gleam of eyes
And the sinister grin of doom.

Perpetual Tango
A song caresses my ears
Though not as gently before
And the years do not create
The need to ask for more.
On the melody is played
Continuing it’s fearsome pace
But the piper will not stop
The song’s killing embrace.
Left, right, dip and twirl
The steps are always the same
Each verse my partner changes
But longer they never remain.
On goes my footwork
Unable to break the trance
Of my unwavering destiny
And my never ending dance.

???
A demon appears before me
Shrouded in the darkest black
A vision of pure hate, I see
And my mind it quickly attacks.
I am spun through worlds of flame
Understanding my life is lost
Amongst the agony my body claims
As payment for the final cost.
For my soul has flown its prison
And may live its existence in peace
Above all reality it has been
And allowed me a final release.

P1
The pressure slowly builds
Until I must grant release
Of the one thing that my
Body must quickly cease.
For boundaries are pressed
Beyond what they can contain
And upon the cold world
My excess I must drain.
With the open space inviting
I expel my sour contamination
And thank whoever is listening
For their timely creation.

P3
The indifferent chasms opens
Waiting silently for my gift.
I stare at the cold hole
And send my offering into the rift.
Gone is the pressure built
As I expel my body’s taint
Gone is the hold on my pain
Gone is my willful restraint.
I free my contamination
From my frail fleshy bounds
And send the poison past my reach
To the accepting void I’ve found.
I finish my prayers to
The demon ending abyss
And with a tap of my hand
My torment I quickly dismiss.

Terra Firma
I stand atop a cliff, overlooking a sea
And dream of things never meant for me.
My mind wanders and slowly drifts away
From it’s fragile shell and inevitable decay.
Thoughts so innocent and pure as the wind
Hope for that someone the gods may send
To fill this gaping void painfully left in my soul
And gives me what I seek, to once again be whole.
Clouds float below me, so soft and unreal
And the pain of the past I once again feel.
For bereft of my body and the emotions it gives
I find reality lurking past where my mind lives.
The mind is logical, the body is unstable
The two combined is a union unable
To separate truths from sweet illusion
But my mind is free and I see my delusion.
My lofty perch teeters as I now regrettably know
That no love is available and no love will ever show.
I plummet through the clouds to my body standing
My descent is reckless, and painful is my landing.
Back inside my flesh, my eyes lose their blur,
I think of the lost love, nameless, faceless, her.
I used to have faith, in fate I used to believe
But for love forever gone, I can only now grieve.
Standing atop a cliff, looking out to sea
My greatest fear is known, alone I’ll always be.

© 2009 Ravenai